Oh here we go again, the story so far

The other half couldn't handle or understand the depression, he left us in 2011 to live at his mums.  It was a hard time, we protected the children.  To be honest i don't think they even realised he had gone, because mummy does everything anyway.

But things get worse, I was happy while he was away, in the sense I took control and responsibility.
Then he moved back in, life changed,

i did things, that i just don't understand why....., terrible terrible things, with life changing consequence